Yesterday was tough. Thankfully, I don’t have many “tough” days so, in a way, having one now and then is a nice reminder of how good I’ve got it. And also that Someone cares enough about me to give me opportunities for growth!
First off, I started Sunday emotionally wrung out from Saturday and the memorial service we’d attended for a loved one. Second, we had a full day at the church from helping teach SS to having a pizza-puppet-prop-party right after the morning service. Junior high boys love to push my buttons. And that’s all I’ll say about that.
Then, that night, I inadvertantly ticked one of the Awana leaders off, to the point that this person left during club and possibly won’t be coming back. *I* wanted to leave and never come back, so I don’t blame the poor person! Very sobering how a simple misunderstanding can avalanche a rockstorm of anger and hurt.
And if that wasn’t bad enough, I about made one of the TnT girls cry because I kept after her about her text-messaging during Council Time. She just wouldn’t quit, even with me beside her. I had to finally get up and leave her to it. Grr. What a night!
But you know, after I dropped off the little Sparky we’ve been taking to Awana, her dad surprised me with a thank-you gift, and told me that in a round-about way I’m the reason that they’re back to coming to Sunday School. Among other things. Here I just feel privileged to have his sweet daughter chattering with my darlins in the back seat…and I told him so.
Then today, I was stopped by a complete stranger in the grocery aisle of our hometown market. She asked if I homeschooled. And that propelled the beginning of a new friendship, as she’s just embarked on her first year homeschooling her pre-teen son. We exchanged email addresses and I promised to get her on our home education newsletter list. What a boost!
And last but not least, tonight we sold not one but TWO puppies to a wonderful family who only live 40 miles away…they have thousands of sheep, and thousands of brand new lambs and have invited us to come for a field trip whenever we want…the third puppy sale in three days!
Ahh the balm in Gilead…
It’s hard to be thankful in the midst of trials, yet strangely, in between wishing I could STOP welling up with emotion during the Awana snafu, I was thankful. Thankful that I really wasn’t at fault, that hopefully a note of explanation to this leader will help us put this all behind us, and thankful that God has it all in His hands. He has His own purposes for allowing these types of hurt. If it was chastening that I needed–well, at least I know He’s doing it for my good. If it was just one of those tests to grow me, well, bring it on. I want to be more like Jesus, and honestly, how many of us American Christians really know what it’s like to be persecuted falsely for real or imagined offenses? I sure don’t.
Does it seem strange that I’m looking back at yesterday as a touch from God? Good or bad, I think I needed it. I’ve certainly rethought some of my approaches and hope to never make the same mistakes again. And once I get through this snapshot of trouble, perhaps I’ll reevaluate and hope God shows me if there’s anything even bigger to glean from this.
And with this now off my chest, I need to go write the apology that’s been weaving through my mind since last night. Will you pray with me that it will explain/assuage things satisfactorily to this precious leader? I really really don’t want to lose this person’s help at Awana. Pray for humility for both of us as we work through this.
And God bless you who are hurting at the hands of “do-gooder” Christians. Cut them a little slack. Hopefully, just like me, they’d be horrified to know you felt offended by their actions.
And remember that God’s love covers a MULTITUDE of sins. Live it.